First night back

Tuesday was my first night back at practice, and it went pretty much how i expected. We were about 30 min late because it was Julia's first time, and we had to make sure she was dressed right, and had her gear, etc. when we got there, core work was going on in the center of the rink, and we were unable to take part because we had to gear up. by the time we were all done with that, practice was starting for real and Fresh Meat were called to the end of the rink. there were a ton of us- about 10-15 I'd estimate. the end of the rink we use is a pretty tight fit, so Kevin (the FM coach) told us to just work on skating in circles at first, eventually we practiced the toe stop, and i of course had a hard time, what with the brand new skates and all, but I'll get it. we also switched directions (which is good to work the other leg on turns, so we don't get all buff on one side. lol!) of the 40 min or so of practice time that we had before going to watch the other girls scrimmage, i probably skated about 15. i knew my feet and ankles would hurt, so i didn't wanna push too hard, but at the same time it was really frustrating. I'm much more sure on my feet than i was the last time starting FM, but that;s really not saying much. i still can't seem to stand still on skates. FM training is much more structured now than it was 2 years ago, and i'm nervous about that. the actual syllabus training starts on Tuesday, and just reading it is a bit overwhelming for me. we are supposed to learn and master more in the first week of this syllabus than i did in my 2 months of RCR 2 years ago. now, it;s true that i could barely skate at all that first time, and I've got my feet under me a little better now, but... i think i'll talk to Raven about it some tonight, and see what she says. right now I'm really overwhelmed, and my fear is fighting my desire and motivation to do this. right no i wanna chicken out and go to bed and hide. (also i am really sleeeepy.)
Enough Whining! here are this week's pics:
Julz and i all geared up at the end of practice:
Bonebreaker Barbie rockin the 7th Son tshirt and shorts (and a matching bandanna) in honour of the book release that day.

Julz at the end of her first RCR practice evar! she did sooo great!
Last, but not least, here is Bonebreaker Barbie ungeared, makeup mussed, and looking pretty dang worn out at BK after practice. (none for me- getting Julz dinner)


Despite my insecurity and worries, I'll be going to practice tonight and taking lots of pics, and will be blogging and posting pics tomorrow.